This heart wants to do good

I have a heart,
One which I don't understand,
One which I can't read,
But one which has been with me all this while,
One that knows me very well,
and I believe,
One that loves me

I have a heart,
One which feels,
Happiness,
Sorrow,
Joy,
Emptiness,
Satisfaction,
Loneliness,
Relief,
Anger,
Inspired,
Lost,
Frustration,
Proud,
Loved,
Broken

I have a heart,
and its tired,
Tired of feeling too many things,
So, if thats the case, why can't you stop?
Please stop..
You're killing yourself

I have a heart,
and my heart is complicated,
Confusing,
Conflicted
It wants things,
That sometimes,
i can't afford to provide..

Yet regardless of how confusing it is,
how conflicted,
how complicated,
This heart knows me best,
and I love it for just that

I gotta mend you,
I gotta control you,
Show me what you want..

I have a heart,
and all it wants is to do good..