Wednesday, August 31, 2011


Visited an old lover from the past recently,
Worn and old,
there it stood,
under the dark evening sky,
with two poles at each end,
two hoops..
One purpose.

There it stood
the place where once,
both satisfaction and passion intertwined,

How i missed the adrenaline of being in it,
being apart of it,

But that night was not meant for a comeback,
that night was not written for a resurrection,
that night was a moment made to reminisce,
to miss,
to question,
was it right for me to ever leave it in the first place?

I dare not answer,
I dare not ponder,
instead i ran.
I ran around it,
until i couldn't run anymore.
and at the end of it all,
my heart ached.
Its as if it was so close,
yet so far.

My heart ached,
and perhaps that answered my question.
perhaps it knew the answer all this while.
Perhaps i knew the answer all this while.
And its about time to stop denying it.

And while i ran, this put me into the mood that i needed. Thank you flash, for the company :)

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Make now happen

Composed and collected,
One may appear,
Yet the truth is,
She is filled with fear.

Fear of what may happen,
What may come her way,
Fear of losing,
what money can't pay,
People can't buy,
Fear of wanting,
what's not meant for her,
Oh how she hates goodbyes

They say cut away your attachments,
as many as you can,
live alone,
live freely alone,
by your own will,
your own rules,
your own mind,
your own heart.

So that when you fall,
you know there won't be anyone there.
When you fall,
You pull your own parachute made of vines and drapes,
When you fall,
You won't be searching for anyone's help.
When you fall,
you pull yourself up.
You pull yourself up.
Because you know no one is there,
Because you made sure no one's there,
Because you would only depend on only yourself
Because you're so used to that.

But no man is an island,
And there's a reason for that,
No man is an island,
For we're continents,
linked by steel bridges,
connected by words,
All trying to project an understanding.

No man is an island,
for we need each other,
To set examples,
To inspire our lost souls,
We were made that way.
He made it that way.
And there will always be a reason to that.
No man is island,
because we can't help ourselves

The future conjures so many possibilities,
and the past events are like scars of remembrance,
constantly reminding us,
the bittersweet taste of it all.

Thinking of things can be very exhausting sometimes.

But what happened in the past,
and what determines the future,
Now is the time to evaluate,
and analyze,
to see what is right for u,
Now is the time you set things right,
Now is the time for you to be in control,
to take charge.
Now is YOUR time.
Now is when you decide how things should be,
Now is when you can make a change,
Now is when you can make an impact.
Now is important.
Now is worth it.
Make now happen.

Make now happen.

Monday, August 22, 2011

~I am just a picture frame, I am not the painter

There’s one way out and one way in
Back to the beginning
There’s one way back to home again
To where I feel forgiven

What is this I feel, why is it so real
What am I to say

It’s only love, it’s only pain
It’s only fear, that runs through my veins
It’s all the things you can’t explain
That make us human

I am just an image of something so much greater
I am just a picture frame, I am not the painter
Where do I begin, can I shed this skin
What is this I feel within

It’s only love, it’s only pain
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It’s only fear that runs through my veins
It’s all the things you can’t explain
That make us human

That make us human

Sunday, August 21, 2011

I miss these :)

1. Enya - Book of Days
I used to listen to this again, and again, and again when i was 10 hahaha.. :)

2. Enya - Carribean Blue
This was no 1 for months during my matric age lol

3. Enya - Watermark
This was quite a recent addiction :)

4. Enya - The River Sings

5. Enya - Anywhere is

Ahhh who'd forget this!! hahaha i remembered teaching my sister to sing this song while we were playing 'teacher2' back when i was 7 or 8 haha :P

6. Enya - Now We Are Free

Ahh.. here's when i had a huge crush on Rusell Crowe hahahahaha!
Man, tetibe sebak :(


Friday, August 19, 2011

One of em random adventures :)

So i woke up one morning, and i told myself..

"I think i'm going to Singapore tomorrow"

Yup, it was that random lol. Told my mom and dad about it, they bought me tickets.. and before you know it, i was on a green bus to Singapore lol! And the best part of it all aside from it being random, was me going ALONE! :P You know how much i love going on these random adventures alone :)

No, i'm not gonna tell you guys exactly what happened in Singapore lol u know i'm not that kind of blogger who puts up posts on what she does on this day, and that day, bla bla bla :P But i am gonna write about what i got in return from the whole trip. Its what they called, perspective :)

It was after buka, when Aiman and i were goofin' around as always. Oh this kid was one hyperactive nut alright. He was climbing on my back, stepping on my feet like 'transformers' or so he claimed hahaha, givin' my hair a bit of style inspired by this bush around the corner of his house perhaps, cozz gurrlllll (or boy if you're one haha :P), it became all bushy alright hahaha.. I was truly drained! lol. But regardless of how exhausted i became, it didn't matter. I love playing with Aiman :)

And so where were we? Ah yes, goofin' around, so we were goofin' around. And all of a sudden, he came up with this guessing game.
Its sorta like charades i guess, but its just a one-word thing rather than having to figure out the whole sentence of it. So it was on one of this kid's turn that he took a pillow in one hand, made a fist in the order, and was jumping on sofas in a particular interval.


"hhahaha eee mana adee!!"

Crap. i knew i was gonna lose this round hahaha i mean, what could he possibly be if not a monkey? himself? bahahahahaha!! kay kay, joking aiman! lol..

"Kakak Yasmin give up ke?"

"EH noo.. mana ade seyy"


"Okay aiman, what on earth are you? lol"

"Org dayak!! uga-uga!"

pffftttt... hahahahaha and that was what lit up this light bulb cap of mine lol. How diverse, creative and observant kids can be, uptil he could think of picking up a pillow and using it as a tool to add a wee bit of detail to what he had to describe. How fast that particular idea came to him was another thing that i was astounded by as well. And i dont think it takes an intelligent 6 year old brain to do that, i think all of us, once upon a time ago was like him. Every detail meant to us a lot, once upon a time ago. Every detail made us eager to understand more. Every detail made us want to relate to everything else that we know.

Unfortunately though, as we grow older, we tend to ignore this gift of ours. Ignorant, we became, and now we're missing out the details. We're missing out the fun to understand things, to WANT to understand things. Instead, we do things just because we have to do them, and WAIT for something to happen to us, to spark that interest again. We've become pathetic. hmm...

I love these random adventures.
These adventures that i go on alone.
It makes me see things.
It makes me see things :)

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

~Is precious and rare and fleeting

Middle of nowhere
Finally you can breathe
Nobody knows your name
It's easier

Shut your eyes tightly
Clench your fists 'til they almost bleed
Cautiously, lightly
Gently expose what's underneath

And all you feel now
Is the scarlet in the day
Even if it's real
You can't stay...

So there you go
You're gone for good
There you go
You're gone for good

Your mind is swollen
From months of thought without release
They've taken their toll on you
And this very moment
Of timid and fragile honesty
Is precious and rare and fleeting

And all you feel now
Is the scarlet in the day
And even if it's real
You can't stay...

-- sometimes,
being alone is not that bad,
in times of loneliness
you feel at home..

Monday, August 15, 2011


when something hits you,
especially for the first time,
you just need time to process it,
you need space to think.

I'm so used to leading my own life,
being in charge,
I'm so used to deciding for myself,
where people just let me be,
leave me with whatever it is that i want to do,
and trust me that at the end of the day,
when i say I'll be alright,
i'll be alright.

But now that i'm sensing a change of scene,
I cant help myself but to be caught off guard,
dumfounded and conflicted,
confused with how to feel,
or how to react to it..

In some ways,
I am well relieved.
I'm tired of leading,
I'm tired of having to be uptight all the time,
And its always soothing to know,
what you do
matters to someone.
regardless of how big,
or small it is..
I guess i'm beyond happy to welcome such a change :)

But i dont want to get use to it,
if its not planning to stay..
I dont want to be blinded by it,
depended on it,
attached to it,
if its leaving me soon.
I can't afford to be vulnerable,
I can't afford to be fragile again,
not out in the open,
for it'll hurt,
like an open wound,
left to dry in a sand storm.
Imagine each sand particle,
scrapping off your bare flesh,
as the wind twirls it deeper,
and deeper into the layers of your skin.
It hurts.
The kind of hurt that'll haunt me forever.
I'm done hurting that way.

Conflicted these uncertainties are making me feel,
and i'm not sure what to make of it just yet.
I hope time is given to me,
for me to reside the infliction.
I hope if i seem reluctant,
patience will be offered.
And if i am to believe in this,
i hope it won't leave me in a dreadful way.

All trust and hopes of mine is to Him,
for He know best for all of us insyaAllah.. :)

The OTHER side of me and one of her rare hellos :P

1. Lights - Ellie Goulding (Bassnectar's remix)

2. Drowning - Armin Van Buuren ft Laura

3. I got nothing but love for you - Axwell

4. Promises - NERO (Skrillex remix)

5. Louder - Katy B



Words are constructors.
Building bridges between two unlikely things,
two unlikely beings,
two unlikely minds,
two unlikely hearts.
Creating a common interest,
a common understanding.

Words are linkers,
Linking pieces of a puzzle,
To obtain that one big picture,
And to decide what emotions to feel
at a particular given situation,
To be shared with others,
For others to see,
Exactly what you see,
For others to feel,
Exactly what you feel

Words are demolishing.
Destroying and bombing down sturdy monuments,
As if the walls and metal structures were made of paper,
Paper that'll fly away with an unsettling wind,
Like the past didn't mean a thing.

Words are blades,
Blades that are sharp enough to cut confidence into pieces,
Slice dignity into strips of waste,
Puncture souls that bleed forever.
Leaving scars that would take a lifetime to heal,
or maybe more.

Words are keys,
Keys to worlds beyond our own imagination,
Worlds that offer sacred hopes and faith,
Flooring on trust and honesty.
Some of these worlds are only to be reserved for oneself,
Some have their gates open to only certain people with authority.
But who'd known these open gates welcome not only companionship,
But severe vulnerability as well

I've always been amazed by what words can do,
How they could make you feel like the most valuable person in one second,
And all shitty in the next.
How they could move the nation to greater heights,
and then conjure wars among each other.
How they're a giver, giving all hopes that's too tempting to not be infected by it,
Only to crush all them hopes into shards of broken glass for you to step on.
Its like they give you wings to fly,
and then throw a lighting bolt at them once you soar the skies.
Words are capable of doing that alright.
They are so capable of doing that
that sometimes, it makes me feel as if its better to not feel like u're the most valuable person in the first place,
as if its better to not admit that u could reach greater heights,
that its better to not believe in these uncertain hopes,
or perhaps to not fly at all.

As how confident i would use words to share the view from this window of mine,
As how comfortable i am with them when sharing my thoughts and feelings with others,
I'm afraid of giving false hopes,
Words tend to give false hopes.

I'm well terrified to believe in the words that come by themselves to greet me as well,
to invite me for a view from another window.
Im afraid of losing sight of whats real and losing my grip by words,
i've been down that road once,
I wish to never revisit it again.

But you'll never know when you'll be losing sight until you do,
You'll never know when you'll hit rock bottom until you can no longer go any lower,
You'll never know...

Words are keys,
Keys to heaven and hell.
May Allah show me guidance huhu..

Friday, August 12, 2011

~I got my secrets, and you only have the sleeping sun

Climb up your mountain
Nineteen and countin'
You have got seven, I have got one

Blinded and hurtin'
This I'm deserving
I've got my secrets
You've only got the sleeping sun

When you've got a secret
Then you've got to keep it
When you've got a question
Answers will come

Running and hiding
Take and dividing
You've got your secrets
I've only got a sleeping sun

Sleeping Sun
Oooh um
Ohhhh oh...
Ahhh ahh
Oh oh
Oh oh
Oh ohh

And you, as I, saw
A piece in a jigsaw
Run up and around it and
Jump up real tall.

Run round the houses,
North and the souths'
You've got your answers we've
Only got a sleeping sun.

Sleeping Sun
Oooh um
Ohhhh oh...
Ahhh ahh
Oh oh
Oh oh
Oh ohh

Flash Dearest.. :)

Your warm whispers
Out of the dark they carry my heart
Your warm whispers
Into the dawn they carry me through
And I'm weeping warm honey and milk
That you stay surrounding me, surrounding me

Your warm whispers
Letting me drown in a pool of you
Your warm whispers
Keeping the noise from breaking through
And I'm weeping warm honey and milk
That you stay surrounding me, surrounding me
Yeah I'm weeping warm honey and milk that you
Stay surround me, surrounding me
Honey stay surrounding me


Wednesday, August 10, 2011


I'm beyond happy,
and scared at the same time.

Is that even possible?

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Again - Bruno Mars ft Natasha Bedingfield (Piano cover by Me)

I tend to relate phases of my life with songs. Almost every particular portion of my life would have a particular song to it, so that when i listen to the song one day later, i'll be remembered of that particular moment.

A certain somebody recommended me this, and the moment i heard it, i knew i would want this to remind me in the future of the happenings that are happening at this very moment. And so, i decided to create a piano cover to it hehe. I did mess up a few parts, as usual, and i apologize in advance if it spoils the whole thing lol. Bt i think this is good enough for now. Here's to that person who recommended to me this song.. It'd be nice if you can sing to it.. dont worry, ill make sure there won't be any flowers around when you do so.. hahahaha! :P Enjoy!

Sunday, August 7, 2011

~And i don't want to mess this thing up, I don't want to push too far

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take this slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch in the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch in the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave,
but you'll be in my dreams

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch in the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright,
oh, let's do this right,
with just a kiss goodnight

With a kiss goodnight
Kiss goodnight

~ Things do come unexpectedly, don't they?
Regardless of wherever this may lead,
Am gonna appreciate every single bit of it,
and hoping for the best :)
Thanks for sharing this,
most DEF can relate to it alright haha :)

Thursday, August 4, 2011

I was inspired

I was browsing thru songs, as usual, until i came across this track. Its been awhile since i listen to post rock. And this track might get me to listen to them again! hahaha.. dubstep perhaps can step aside for awhile :P Listening to this has inspired me to come up with the "you need people" post. If you don't mind sparing a few minutes for a life reflection experience, do listen to this, clear your mind, and let it get to you.. :) Enjoy!

You need people

You need people to do good to you,
so that you know what good is..

You need people to do bad to you,
So that you know what good is..

You need people to motivate you,
so that you know what it means to achieve,

You need people to bring you down and mock you,
so that you know what it means to achieve

You need people to be there for you,
so that you know what it means to mean something

You need people to leave you,
so that you know what it means to mean something

You need people to share your stories with,
so that you know what it means to be apart of something

You need people to ignore your presence,
so that you know what it means to be apart of something

You need people to care for you,
so you know what you're worth

You need people to tear you into pieces,
so you know what you're worth..

You need people.
Other people.
To love you.
To help you.
To guide you.
To make impact.
In your lives.

and to tell you..
that you're okay

to tell you
that you're worth it

to let you know
that you're awesome
just the way you are..

to make you believe
that you matter

I'm happy alhamdulillah, with the company Allah has provided me with..
and i'm grateful to be given such an opportunity to get to know
every single soul that i've come across in this life..

Regardless of how big or small,
or how good or bad..
all of you have made an impact,
to this world,
to the people,
to me :)
and i'm thankful that
you people are just
who you people are..

Thank you
May all of us be blessed by Him always..

To all my muslim friends,
Happy Ramadhan Mubarrak :)

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Jar of Hearts - cover by me :)

I've been getting requests to make a cover of this song lol.. and i'm sorry for taking too long to do so. My house underwent a renovation, and i had to wait, plus the two months of not being at home lol. This is a short cover though, and i think i messed up the middle, (the humming part to be precise hahaha :P) but i can't afford to try and make another one.. so i hope this will do lol. Enjoy! :)

Monday, August 1, 2011

Someone Like You (Adele) - Cover by Syakirah and Yasmin

This goes out to our best friend, Syahirah. It was kinda late, i know, due to some certain technical difficulties lol.. but i hope you'll enjoy this, and it'll make you miss us even more!! hahahhaha happy 21st birthday.. may you be blessed by Him always.. and happy ramadhan! :)