Sunday, February 27, 2011

I'm no hero

This might be up on my mixpod soon lol.
Wouldn't it be nice if i was on top of one of the mountains,
gazing down at the other ones around it..
that would be awesome..
I fancy that kind of life ya know..
One dedicated to explore His beautiful creations
I dont think i was meant to stay put within brick walls
I dont think i was meant to sit behind piles of paperwork
or in the meeting room discussing about money
and human behaviour

I'm no hero
I dont think i was meant to save the world
But, I do think i was meant to discover it
I'm meant to roam
Roam the world
and I will, insyaAllah..
I will.. :)

Have an awesome week ahead my friends,
keep all chins up, yea? :)

Thursday, February 24, 2011

~All the colors of the world are in me :)

I am green today
I chirp with joy like a cricket song.
I am gray today
Gloomy and down like a morning fog.
I am orange today
Loud and messy like finger paint on the wall.
I am red today
Hopping mad like a playground ball.
I am black today
Strong and tall a great big bear.
I am purple today
Bright and happy like a butterfly in the air.

I'm a

All the colors of the world.
I'm a rainbow today
All the colors of the world.
I'm a rainbow today
All the colors of the world are in me.

I am yellow today
I shine my light out like the sun.
I am white today
Soft and quite like new snow.
I am blue today
Calm as glass and cool like the sea.

I'm a rainbow today
All the colors of the world.
I'm a rainbow today
All the colors of the world.
I'm a rainbow today
All the colors of the world are in me.
All the colors of the world are in me.

hehehe have an awesome friday people! :D


I don't quite have much time at the moment, but i do feel like blogging, just to sum up how things are going so far :)

This semester has only two words to describe it, and they are, Fucking and Busy. Yes.. FUCKING BUSY!! With a whole lot of assignments, reports, presentations, lepas tu ada test, quiz, mcm mana tak nyawa-nyawa ikan kaann?? hahahaha dgn masalah club lagi.. oh i can't wait to resign my presidency and be free from all of these programs that i have to supervise. True, i may not be that involved in organizing the programs but if y'all mess up, my ass would be on the line and that ain't fun minions, ain't fun at all! So im praying and hoping that our upcoming events will go on just well, insyaAllah.. huhu cepat laa habes sem ni!! hahaha :P

Yet, even with all that busy-ness, i still found time to have fun, and so i did go for a hiking trip 3 weeks ago, to PD with family about 4 weeks ago, attended a YMP program about the Great Women of Islam which was amazing.. huhu.. :) went to watch another orchestra featuring one of the famous harpist in the worrld!! and he was awesome!! the three of us couldn't stop smiling.. oh and we got to take a picture and greeted personally the conductor and also the harpist himself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahhahahahha gilaaa weyyy.. AND AND AND, one of the musicians touched my phone!! hahahahhahahaha!! yea, we wanted to take a picture, and we just asked for help from the people there, and we ended up asking one of the musicians to do so, at random! mula2 tak sedar, lepas dah tangkap semua tu, the three of us were like, 'he seemed familiar'... in our heads, and aleh2 everything clicked and the next thing u know, we were jumping up and down ahhahahahahhaha!! Haidir, Najwa, Me and a day to remember :D Went for a movie with my family and we all went to the arcade as well lol, that was funny.. aaand aand aaanddd.... i bought myself hamsters to accompany me at college!! HAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! which was sooooo random.. didn't see that one coming.. hahahahha they're superbly cute by the way.. sgt sgt chomellllll :D Now, im officially broke. YES. BROKE hahahaha but i think whatever i spent on, they're all worth it :)

Alhamdulillah, two days ago, i've received an awesome news which i shall tell you guys what it is once its like really really happening. Its 80% confirmed tho i wudn't wanna jinx it.. huhu.. doa2kan la eh? :) Kalau jadi, i might be making friends with one of the the green-earthling owners of a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow lol!! wooops tape, tak ramai reads this blog anyway hahaha :) insyaAllah..

So that is that.. Life is not easy, true, but it is simple if you view it from the right window :) And have you heard of the saying, big things always start from a spark of imagination (or somethin' like that? lol). That, too, is true. Dream big, add in effort, determination, faith and an open heart, insyaAllah, it'll come to you.. :)

Friday, February 18, 2011

"In My World, We're Free"

This month has been its uttermost hecticness (if there is such an expression lol! :P). So to cool down the building stress, as how all of my originals would start off, i started playing around with notes, and in this case, plucking a few strings, and came up with this melody. Thought it sounded nice, and recorded it :) Its a bit of a mess, i have to admit, especially the part with the bass strings.. lol boy, u dont know how many times i have to record over and over again to get that part right!! I've just started playing the guitar anyway, and i'm still a first-grader (at guitar that is haha if only i am one in real life :P).

Newho, when i listened to this, it sets my mind free, hence the name :) And no, i'm not trying to be ana rafali whoever she is lol. I heard she received an award, congrats to her! But no, this is just to share my music with the rest of the world :) Give it a listen, and enjoy! :)

Monday, February 7, 2011


Dearest children of mine,

By the time you read this, i'd most probably be dead.. for thats when you'd be getting this letter and all the other letters that i'll be writing to you. May they make you feel very close to me....................NOT!! HAHA typical gila.. no darlings, mommy ain't that lame! Hopefully i'll be alive when you read this, insyaAllah. Well and alive lol :D

Yea, i was about to brush my teeth in the toilet just now, and all of a sudden, i had this idea of writing letters to you guys, coz apparently, grandpa is doing the same for mommy (yea, thats granpa, mommy and your auntie esah. Call her esah, and nothin' else but that okay? hehe), and it'd be cool to keep it like a generation thing, make it into a book, and pass it down or something right?? And we can like put the original copies in a treasure chest, bury it somewhere and create codes to it, and have our own genaration of Da Vinci codes to solve, except that it wont be called Da Vinci.. instead itd be called.. The Yaokiki Codes HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA AWESOME BLOSSOM! :D *crick *crick..... (yea, at the age of 22, mommy is a bit whacked up in the brain, but hey.. u shouldn't be complaining, i bet these genes are in you as well, so you better get use to it! lol)

I have yet to meet your dad. Or perhaps i have, but i dont know if he's your dad just yet lol. At this rate, he could be anybody! A doctor, an engineer, a musician, a clown, a bookstore owner.. an astronaut? (oh please let it be an astronaut. Please let it be an astronaut!!). Well, you know better than i do about this i guess. But truthfully, i'm more excited to meet you guys than daddy really. I've always had this excitement of wanting to be a mother more than being someone's wife. And at this rate that im going, im thinking that i might not even get married, and adopt you guys from somewhere. So i'll have you guys + me + and a heart thats not broken lol. But that's plan B. I'd want you guys to have a dad.. and of course other beneficial reasons.. wooot! XD

so ANYWAY, ill be keeping this first letter short. Mommy has a class tomorrow morning at 8, and its 1am at the moment, yea, bad mommy hahaha.. But i'd like to share with you something before i say good night. Regardless of what happens to you, good or bad, you would always have these three with you all the time to support you if you let them. Your family. Yourself. and of course Allah. Remember that.. Love you loads! Gnite!! :)

"The only constant thing in life, is change"

"The only constant thing in life, is change"

I saw this saying once, on some tv commercial. Yea, i've been watching a lot of TV lately, especially when im at home. They have awesome shows now! TopChef, MasterChef, JuniorChef, Boy meets grill, restaurant make-over, food network challenge, oh and that bakery dude.. whats his name.. buddy? yea him! . . . . .fine, lemme rephrase myself. I've been watching a lot of food tvshows lately hahahhahahaha.. go figure? :P

ANYWHO.. where was i.. ah yes, Change. One thing that i've been noticing lately, is how things can drastically change just like that. The environment changes, your situation changes, the people around you change, we change, I change, YOU change. Regardless of in what ever way, good or bad, whether you want it or not, like it or not, it happens. It freakin' happens. And imma say, its scary.

Today, you may be waking up at home by your mom's babblin, as you strettttttch your limbs to greet the sun's beautiful ray shining down your window, with your cat still snoring his ass away, and how you envy his life being all simple and yours not lol. Tomorrow you may be woken by the splash of water on to your face as a car takes the curb and hits the puddle right next to your sleeping port, putting you and your flattened box that you slept on in a state of pure wetness. The next day you may be waking up in the arms of your lover after a lovely rendezvous on some remote island oo la la.. hahaha and the day after the next, you might not even be awaken at all. hmm so yea, situation changes lol. But people say, let the situation change, as long as you hold on to your own principles, you'll be fine.

Now who ever told these people, that one's principles can never change? lol Because they do alright, oh yes they do. People do change, and thats the scariest thing.

Today, your sister might be telling you that she hates pink. The next thing you know, everything she owns is pink in colour. Today your friend might be telling you that she loves cats. The next thing you know, she opens a cat-slaughter house and feed cat-tail soup to some tribe in the amazons hahahha Today your taxi driver tells you to never take on a cab that doesn't go by the meter. The next thing you know, his taxi is without one. Today your president or prime minister tells you that he'll assure you a safe environment to live in. The next thing you know, he's stealin' your iphone hahaha dont ask me why. Today a dude tells you he wants to marry you. The next thing you know, he doesnt want any kind of attachment lol :) Change

Hate it when these things happen huh? It makes you think twice to take in whatever people tell you. But we don't live in a stagnant world. As we expose ourselves to the dynamics of our environment, we can't help but to adapt. See things from a better perspective. Change :) And change is good. It makes things new and interesting. I mean, who'd wanna be livin' a life thats the saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame all the time right? I knw i wudnt want that.

But sometimes, i do wish we'd get a bit of a warning before things start to change... At least tade la terkejut badaaak kan.. hahaha :)

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

In the Arms of an Angel - Cover by Me :)

Align Center

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So, I was browsing through utube (when i was suppose to be working on my assignment hahahah the usual :P), stumbled upon this song. I've always loved Sarah McLachlan. I think she owns a magnificent voice, like no other. And i haven't been feelin quite myself lately, so when i heard the lyrics to the song, i felt an instant connection haha that's when i decided to come up with this cover. No, my voice is nothin' like Sarah McLachlan hahaha but i had fun making this.. enjoy! :)

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Unspoken Words - Original Composition :)

Here's a song or a melody that i recently came up with. As usual, i was playing around with my piano, bangin' random melodies while recording it, and this came out of nowhere lol thought it sounded nice, and so i decided to make a vid of it.

I had to give up my old piano 3 weeks ago. This particular piano has been with me for 18 years. YEAH! Imagine that! lol. I guess it had sentimental value to it, yes folks, i did feel a lot sad to give it away, but oh well. You get a hold of things, you let go of things. Nothin' new there kan? So this piece that i came up with, i've decided to dedicate it to my old piano lol.

Music is an art of expression. A way of putting understanding, feelings into a universal form to be shared. Or at least, that's how i picture it. And behind each melody, each note, there's a story. As this piece was an impromptu, which means, i didn't really plan it to be this way, it just came out naturally and unconsciously, there should be a reason why it sounded the way it did hahaha kan? So i listened to it again and again, and the only feelings i got were sadness, ambitious, longing. Is it trying to say that deep deep down, thats how i feel? HAHAHA sheesh..

But whatever it is, towards the end, i get the "don't worry, everything's gonna be alright :)" feeling.. so i hope, that part is true lol. Newho, enjoy the melody!! And feel free to comment on what you think about it. Perhaps you have your own interpretation of it? :)