Dimanche - An original composition by me :)

Hey there! :) Here's my latest piece, which was inspired by the constant showers of late night rain, and the load of work i've been getting lol.. Do not ask how THAT could have inspired me to come up with this, but i guess it shows especially on the hard notes towards the end lol :P I've also combined photos to match up with the melody.. and decided to call it Dimanche, which means Sunday in French.. simply because it felt like the kind of deep thinking you'd normally get on Sundays.. pfftt hahahaha enjoy! :)

Rant-ten-ten-teennnn

Exactly 24 hours ago, i was fairly excited and looking forward to the next day which is today, considering there's no class and that i can do soooooooooooo many things!!! I had loads on my mind already. I thought of going home, and start working on the background music for this performance my coursemates and i would haf to do this coming monday, i also did think of watching a movie, or perhaps pay the 4th year students a visit and support their presentation, spend the day in the library, go swimming, take a morning jog.. Banyak kan?? TAAAPPPIII tu semuaaa angan-angan semata2.

Instead i started the next 24 hours with a discussion at my friend's room till midnight, slept till morning, worked on my library project which i thought would only take 2 hours of my time, but nooo, it took half of my day, and so i couldn't go home :(.. watched a movie on my laptop after that, and went for a jog which i only managed to run half the usual route i usually take (it became nauseating towards the end.. :( .. sheeshh), and here i am, typing the very next line to yet another ranting post lol. I loathe you, assignments!

But, its nevertheless a relief to hav completed them assignments. Or else they'd disturb my future plans AGAIN, and that ain't cool. Anywho, talking about future plans, i'm suppose to give a speech this coming tuesday at the annual grand meeting, which is alright i guess but like i'm freakin' out on what the heck im gonna saay!???!? Like seriously, i haf no clue on what to say.. but i know the begining of my speech would haf "bla bla bla.. Allow me to deliver my speech in English..bla bla bla" though

HAHAA yup, i'm pretty much screwed :S

*waterworks*

Simply remarkable...
If only i could watch this live.. T_T

Spontaneous Thoughts

I've been wanting to blog for awhile now, but i'm not sure what to blog about. GAH!! :P So, imma just type whatever that crosses my mind, bear with me lol.

Let's start with whats been happening in my life lately.

1. School.

Nuthin' new there, aside from the load of WORK i've been getting. Sheeshhh PEENNGSSAAAAAAn i tell uuu~~ *dlm intonasi mak cik2x yg pakai gelang emas baru nak start gossip tu hahaha! kesian makcik2 ni, ntah pasal2 kene stereotype.. not that i haf anything against these people. Or perhaps i do? hhahaha kali bile besar, aku plak jadi macam tu.. pergh.. bley bayangkan?? 8-} ANYWAY, where was i.. ah yes, assignments. U know that feeling of satisfaction whenever you've completed your assignment? That good feeling that would hang around for like a day or two, just to remind u what u've accomplished and stuff. Well, thats the feeling i'd usually sought after whenever im given an assignment. In other words, i'd do my best on it, and the feeling would usually linger for like two days or so. But at this RATE that i'm going, baru nak bergembiraaa sbb dah siap satu, datang pulaak lagi satu! Ahaiiii~.. bley coma! Sampai banyak sgt, i'm not sure dah skrang ni ada assignments apa yang tak complete lagi hahahahha tau2 je, phone berbunyi, tgk message~:: "Yasmin, haf u submitted your bla bla bla bla bla bla~" aishhhh rasa macam nak campak phone! hahhahaha... tapi tape.. (<-- style kutan haha!)

2.People.

Britney Spears claimed that there are two types of people in the world: the one's that entertain, and one's that observe. While she is the put-on-a-show type of girl (which the world couldn't agree less lol), i think its fair for me to say that i'm more of the observant kind, or at the very least i think i am? hahaha. I love to observe. I love talking to people, getting to know how they're living their life, and not to judge after that, but to evaluate and give its own meaning by my own terms. There's a lot that you can learn by just observing.

One of the most prominent things that i've observed lately is how comfort blinds you. Comfort is one of the things people would wanna achieve in their lives, and who can deny how easy life is when you're at comfort, right? Comfort calms you, relaxes things, bla bla bla. When you're at comfort, you'd stay put, and you wouldn't wanna move an inch pon sbb u're at comfort! Why wud u wanna change things? LOL! But is that a good thing? Unless if you're aware of your surroundings, staying put and not wanting to move due to easiness is never a good thing. You'll lose sight of greater opportunities.

Example une: You've been living with the same postcode, within the same neighborhood, the same roof all of your 60 years of life, merely because you feel sooooo comfortable at home and you wouldn't wanna go anywhere else!! 60 years! I could WALK-ON-FOOT and make a huge round trip of the world with 60 years. 3 rounds perhaps! lol see how much this person is missing out on?

Example deux: You're at uni, an environment that puts all kinds of people in one place. People who are brought up from various backgrounds, different ethnicity, people with different interest and views. Yet there you are, hanging out with the same group of people for 4 years, talking to only with the people in that group of yours, going to bathrooms together, study together, practically everything together and no one else, simply because you're comfortable with them. You find that you guys share a mutual understanding simply because you're alike. You think alike. And you think thats enough. OH wow. whoopey. hoorrayy.

But doesn't it occur to you that, say if you just take one step out of your comfort zone, and get to know the other options around you, you might just gain a bit more wisdom, and a bigger picture of things? I mean, thats your opportunity right there! Imagine different people having different opinions about things, and then you integrate them to get an even better conclusion, masyaAllah, wouldn't that be better?? Unfortunately, there's this stigma in our community where everyone just HAS to be normal in their own group. Sadly, not that many have the courage to be different, and more importantly, abide by their own principles. Its sad to see opportunities drift away just like that, dont you think so?

"We find comfort among those who agree with us.
.- growth among those who don't"

Wow, daripada tade pape nak blog about, teros sampai ke sini hahahhaha!! Well, if you're still reading this, thank you bearing with all this. Hope you find it rather useful, if not amusing lol! :P I'mma end this here for now i guess, 3 more weeks till the final exams kick in. bluerghhhhhh... i can't wait for the holidays!

I dare you to move~

"I dare you to lift yourself,
to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before"

:)

:)

""""''The past is as powerless to darken the present moment
as is a shadow to reach up
and drag down the form that casts it"

Thanx Haidir :)

Everything's not lost :)

When I counted up my demons
Saw there was one for every day
With the good ones on my shoulders
I drove the other ones away

So if you ever feel neglected
And if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
Hoping everything's not lost

When you thought that it was over
You could feel it all around
And everybody's out to get you
Don't you let it drag you down

'Cos if you ever feel neglected
And if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
Hoping everything's not lost

If you ever feel neglected
If you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
Hoping everything's not lost

Singing out
Oh, oh, oh, yeah
Oh, oh, yeah
Oh, oh, yeah
Everything's not lost

Coldplay has never once let me down..
lol, this reminds me a whole lot of New York City.
I miss that place so badly.. huhuhu :( :(

Will be on my way to Kuantan in a matter of hours to attend this symposium at UIA lol. I'm having mix feelings about it tho, but whatever it is, i wish all of you an awesome weekend :)

:S

Ive never been this busy in my whole entire life! Lol im nt sure if thats good in a sense that i get to experience a new 'sensation'..HAHAHA, or if its bad coz i am literally about to lose my freakin' mind.. Gahhh!!

but whatever the case is, here i am, in the bus, waiting for another round of erkh-ness all over again haha. Awesome blossom. Dont fret Yasmin, when times like this strikes u, strike it back! With happy thoughts! ............ Okay, that only lasted for like 10 seconds, GAHhhh!! hahaha..

regardless of the hecticness tho, i find all this quite funny. I mean, here we are trying to get thru life, fretting, whining, complaining, when truth is, we or i, can actually drop it all. I am capable of doing that you knw. I can quit. Live at home, play the piano all day, watch tv.. Eat. Lol! But why aren't i quiting? Is it due to a mere feeling of responsibility? Perhaps. Or is it because, deep deep down, i actually do like getting myself involved and be all busy? Monotone dalaman: seriously yasmin??? Is thaat the case??? Bluerghhh! Daaang it! Hahaha :p

u cant help but to accept the fact that a busy day makes it fulfilling.. N especially when u manage to complete a task within the strictly limited time u're given, u feel this surge of satisfaction running thru ur veins. A feeling that makes u wanna jump up and down, a feeling that makes u smile before u sleep.Dont u feel the same way? Hahaha

but no satisfaction comes easily. this one, unfortunately comes with dopey eyes, massive headache, and an irritating wrinkle across ur forehead.. Shessshh.. I think im abt to haf a fever :S

~You are, my cinema. I can watch you forever

As how weird my taste of music goes, this includes a whole load of dubstep mixes as well, and i find this specific one to be effin' AWESOME! Whenever they drop the bass, its like you've been sucked into a whole new world where you can just SMASH all your problems to the ground and they do really vanish into thin air, rhythmically lol hope i'm making sense, but thats how i picture it whenever i listen to these kind of music.
It ain't trash, its major talent! Enjoy! ;)

Plans

You're right, i'm not suppose to be blogging at the moment. Instead i should be preparing for my toxicology test which would be starting in another like.. 6 hours? And i have 2 more chapters to go. Haidir will kill me if he knows this lol. But something just came across my mind.

There's a particular lecturer from my university, which i shall not mention which one, who rather gives out stories and motivational talks than delivering her lectures lol. I'm not sure if thats a good thing or not, but she said something, or somethingS that got me thinking.

One of it was to decide on a module for my final project, which i haven't even thoroughly thought about! There are various fields which i could be doing my thesis on. I could venture into toxicology or pharmacology, which would be interesting considering you'll be playing around with compounds, and who knows what you may discover! But then again, there are all those tongue twisted names that you have to remember, their reactions, characteristics.. Sounds FUN already no? hahaha yes, i'm being sarcastic. Perhaps i should leave that to the future pharmacists and chemists lol..

I could venture into microbiology or parasitology, or entomology where i'll be surrounding myself with insects, bacteria, worms, viruses uuuuuuuuuu funkey! lol. All gooey, and eeky, taking samples should be fun. I get to go places, remoted places just to find a particular poop that contains a particular microorganism hahahahahahhahahaha.. probable..

But i guess whats appealing to me at this moment, would be molecular biology. I've always been fascinated by the miracles a cell can do. How they are specified, organized, its such a beautiful concept masyaAllah. How something so puny like genes can code magnificent organisms. Don't you find that miraculously amazing? And if nothing gets in the way with my plans this mid of may, insyaAllah, it would be most related to this field. So i guess i might go for this one.

But who knows.. I've yet to really like REALLY REALLY think about it hahaha. Our dean also told us that John Hopkins is opening its own campus here in KL. and they're offering medicine sciences for biomedical sciences degree holders. Alas, an opportunity to fulfill my dreams of being a doctor! huhu but.. after being exposed to what i'm doing at the moment, i'm not sure if being a doctor is really what i want anymore. Haidir told me not to be a doctor. He said i should explore the world, discover nature, which i couldn't agree more. I can't imagine myself constricted in a building 26/7 lol. Another thing i must figure out soon. Perhaps i'll just take medicine for fun, and once i've gotten an MD, ill venture into the research field. Medicinal knowledge would be very beneficial for me i think, even if i am to venture in the research field rather than being a permanent doctor. hahahaha tapi macam too ambitious pulak.. sheeeshh.. i don't know lol..

Plans. Thats the most you can contribute to your own future at the moment. What would really happen, only He knows kan? InsyaAllah, everything goes well. YAY!! JUMAAT!! BLEY BALEK RUMAH!!! hahahahah toodles~ :D

Random

"Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?"

It is funny

Its funny how something so small, simple, and insignificant,

can trigger a whole lot of anger and animosity..

Its funny how convincing a speculation is,

that it overpowers the voice of factual truth

Its funny how something you work for so hard,

perish in agony by nothing but your own ego

Its funny how you can let it become that way

Its funny how after you say something u loath about someone,

that in a few months later, you become just like that someone

Its funny how humans love to complicate things

and then blame on other things for it

Its funny how people gain confidence,

by letting down the people around them

Its funny how people tend to claim

that they don't have time for things,

yet they have time to feel and indulge themselves

in the things that i have mentioned above

It is also funny how i find this all funny lol,

when all of this can really affect us so badly

But you can't blame me for being this way,

coz it is,

truly,

funny.

Hilarious.

Absurd.

Energy has been one of the biggest mysteries in the world,

one of His greatest gifts,

and this is what people are using it for??

Thank you people, for the humor.

Thank you very much! :)